On Being Available

A few weeks ago I spoke with a woman who does amazing work to help clear old patterns. Out of our conversation a little gem surfaced and it has changed how I look at life and therefore changed my life.

I was telling her how frustrated I was about my life’s work…that it felt like I was trying so hard to find the right way to express my gifts and help in the healing of the world and just didn’t know how to proceed any more. She said, “Your only task is to be available.” I knew that and yet when she said those words it was like a sun of awareness began to glow within me.

So each morning and during the day I pause, calm my mind and say to the Universe: “I am available.” I envision myself as open…open mind, open heart, open body…and affirm this simple statement.

It might be simple but it has moved powerfully through my life. I’ve given up the chase for ways to make a difference and have grounded myself in openness. The anxiety of fulfilling my purpose has subsided as I seek spiritual partnership with Divine Inspiration. I root myself in the present moment with no running towards something. If you wish to use my gifts, then here I am. Use me.

This practice has also helped clarify three foundations of my life–Nature, Music and Photography. I feel myself directed back to these touchstones as I affirm my availability. Like the loving arms of the Earth Mother giving me gentle nudges back to these constants in this life.

Oddly enough, ceasing to seek for ways to use my talents has opened the floodgate and I find my creativity pouring forth in ways I never dreamed it could move. I’m no longer expending energy on thinking and pondering and worrying. That energy goes into the flow of creativity as it moves from the neutral ground of openness within me out into manifestation.

If you are constantly talking to someone you can’t hear what they are saying. So I’m listening with an open heart and mind. I’m here. I am available. And now, I’m in that yummy creative flow.